From One Imperfect Parent to Another

You know that thing where you look at the internals of your own life and see the things you’d like to change? You see your weak spots, the habits you’re having trouble shifting. Then you look at the externals of other people’s lives and think they have it all together, and are “better than you” somehow? And you feel inadequate.

You know that thing where you think, “Who am I to be blogging?”

This week I found out that someone has been feeling intimidated by me. After just about spitting out my coffee, I recovered enough to feel a mixture of incredulity, inadequacy, and surprise. I mean, seriously, does she know me at all? I am not even close to being a perfect parent (and such a thing doesn’t exist, anyway), nor am I the most incredible unschooling mum in the world! << Not that I was thinking she was thinking those things!

The reality is, when you write on a blog, or run Facebook groups, people can sometimes perceive something that is only part of the picture. They are looking at your outsides, and you are looking at your insides.

So here I am to tell you:

I sometimes lose my patience with my kids
I sometimes feel disappointed at their choices
I don’t always give them the attention they need
I am better at ideas than I am at results
I sometimes forget to act on my “yes”
I would like to spend more time with my kids and less time with my computer
I am not always fully present when one of my children is talking to me
Our life isn’t all “adventures” ; it is often “ordinary” days

But then, at the end of the day, I remember some of the things my kids have said to me that make everything okay, and remind me of the bigger picture. Things like:

I am so glad you’re my Mum

You would go to the ends of the earth for me

I’m SO glad I’m homeschooled

And I remember that we don’t have to be perfect. If my children feel loved, if they know that I’ve got their back, if they know that I am absolutely there for them no matter what, then all is well.

Thinking this through brings me back to the blogging question. I was honestly thinking, for no particular reason, that perhaps I should shut this site down. I mean, does anyone really care about what we do? Is it worth documenting it here? Shouldn’t I be “perfect” before I write anything that might be perceived as advice? Why do I even do this? I mean, I know I *like* writing, but I was wondering what the underlying purpose of it might be?

So I Googled “Why do people blog?” and I found a fantastically inspirational article that is totally helping me to get my mojo back. 🙂

And so I return to blogging, to sharing some of my thoughts and some of our adventures, not because I’m perfect, but because my heart is filled with passion to share what I love and what we do. Because I have too many thoughts and words for my head to contain, and writing here seems to be as good a place as any for those thoughts and words to spill over. Because it is a really excellent way for me to reflect on life and learning, to process my thoughts, and to – hopefully – inspire one or two other people along the way.

Are you ready? Let’s go!
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Karen Lee

FAMILY: Married since 1989 (does that make me old?), a full-time Mum since 1993, and unschooling my kids since 2005. On a journey of learning to live free and fully loved as God intended, following Jesus rather than an institution or "religion". Caring for the world and its people as best as I can.

2 thoughts on “From One Imperfect Parent to Another”

  1. Oh my goodness! Don’t go away just yet! I just found your inspiring blog and so appreciate your openness. I love your thoughts and writing. Thank you for sharing. I would understand, however, if you needed to stop. Life is always flexing. Keep up the great work, though.:) I am an unschooling mom of three years. You’ve inspired me to consider blogging in the future about how you can parent mindfully while recovering from illness- as I have yet to find that- most likely due to fact that those with a voice for this are doing all they can to focus on recovering and raising a family at the same time. It takes time and energy. Blessings to you and your family, from some life long-learners, in Washington state-USA!

    1. Thanks so much for the encouragement and yes, you’re right, there isn’t much about parenting mindfully during illness, probably for the very reason you mentioned, and also perhaps because people often don’t like airing their dirty laundry in public. It would be wonderful to have more people write about it. All the best with your journey towards better health.

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