During my years (yes, years!) of deschooling, as I journeyed towards really getting unschooling, I struggled with one main question:
HOW MUCH SHOULD I DO? HOW MUCH SHOULD I SUGGEST AND OFFER IDEAS AND ACTIVITIES?
I couldn’t get my head around it. I was learning to trust that my children would learn from living life, I was learning to set them free…. but I wasn’t sure how much to “let them be”, and how much to suggest ideas for activities and outings, etc. How active should my role be? When I heard about the concept of “strewing” I realised I had found my answer! The problem was how I went about doing it.
I would take them to the library … and get frustrated if they only wanted to borrow DVDs instead of “all those interesting books.”
We would end up coming home with piles of borrowed material anyway. Lots of it would not be looked at … and I would comment on what a waste it was.
I would leave an interesting (to me) library book opened on the coffee table and it would often stay untouched … and I would sigh.
I would suggest an outing or activity and the response would often be, “Ah, no, I’m not really interested,” or “Maybe” … and my heart would sink. I had been hoping for something more like, “Yeah, Mum, that’s an AWESOME idea!”
For ages I was completely unaware that when they responded without the enthusiasm I’d hoped for, I would subconsciously do my “magical manoeuvre”: a super-subtle eyeroll that was invisible to me, but very visible to them. They could sense it somehow, and hear the almost-silent sigh. They knew.
They knew I was not happy with their response. That what I was offering was something I really wanted them to want to do. If they didn’t respond with boundless enthusiasm, I took it personally. I judged their choice as “less than.” I really thought they should do it, or at least want to do it.
EXPECTATIONS AND “SHOULD-NESS”
But “should-ness” is soul sapping. Maybe their lacklustre enthusiasm was because of the attachment I unknowingly had to the activity, or perhaps they honestly just weren’t interested.
Either way, my subtle response was not so subtle in its damaging effect on their deschooling journey. It was also damaging to me: my trust would decrease and my frustration would increase. I had this picture in my head of what our life outside of school should look like, and their responses to my occasional suggestions weren’t in keeping with my idea!
I was WAY too attached to my desired outcome; to their enthusiastic response. So when it wasn’t forthcoming, I was disappointed. And they knew it.
What I was doing wasn’t really strewing at all: it was PRODUCT PLACEMENT! with a very clear expectation that they should “purchase” what I was selling.
Their responses to my early strewing attempts became my teacher. I realised:
- The things I was placing around the house, or suggesting we do, had big ugly strings attached.
- They were also often too “schooly,” especially for those early deschooling days. I was still thinking in school subjects, so was mostly offering things that would tick an imaginary educational box for me and a glassy-eyed box for them: perhaps a history documentary or a science experiment etc. The evidence that I overdid that kind of strewing is that my two oldest children who are now almost sixteen and nineteen still mention “history docos” and “science experiments” from time to time with a not-so-subtle rolling of THEIR eyes!
BEYOND SCHOOL SUBJECTS
My “strewing” during our deschooling years looked more like stuffing things down their throats, expecting them to lick their lips and ask for more! To their credit, they knew that they needed more freedom than that and so they did not lap up my lashings of schooly strewing. Their resistance drove me crazy, but when I look back I can see they were still deschooling, needing to detox from everything “school,” and find their happy joyful place.
It took conscious effort to let go of my attachments and expectations, and to learn to love and honour what mattered to THEM, not me. Instead of suggesting that we read a historical novel together, or subscribe to an “educational” magazine, I would probably have been better off playing the video game they loved – with them, going to the beach and exploring the rockpools – without an agenda, cooking delicious food – without the “lesson”…
I needed to learn that life is bigger than school; bigger than school subjects.
And life is richest and most wonderful when there is no expectation or agenda attached to suggestions or scattered objects.
Finally I learned that bringing more of what the children love into their lives is better than trying to “balance” it out by suggesting something different. By being interested in what interests them, and being interesting myself, our life becomes more … INTERESTING!
When I want to suggest something that they are unlikely to stumble upon themselves, it can and should be as natural as the way I might call my husband over to see something cool, or email him a link to something I think he might like, or buy something I know he has been wanting to get.
FROM PRODUCT PLACEMENT TO NATURAL STREWING
We lived in a Christian community once, whose slogan was to let your spiritual life be natural, and your natural life be spiritual. It should be the same with strewing: it moves from “product placement” to “strewing” when our suggestions or scatterings are totally relaxed and natural, when there is no hidden agenda that they should “learn something,” no expectation that they should say yes to our suggestion.
So I finally realised that strewing works best when I:
- Offer without expectation of an enthusiastic YES!
- Bring things into our world without strings attached.
And if the children say no thanks, then that’s because they want to do something that to them, in that moment, is even more wonderful than what I am offering.
When I bring wonderful, new, different and intriguing things into our lives without any pressure or expectation, our wonder and enjoyment increases. When I tickle our senses with new smells, tastes, sounds and objects, we engage more fully with our world. When I spontaneously point something out rather than pre-plan it, they are far more likely to respond with a “Wow, that’s cool Mum!” than a feeling of being manipulated. When I offer a swirling smorgasbord of opportunities and objects because they’re wonderful, not because they tick a school box, life is more delicious!
I eventually realised that I had been looking at my initial question the wrong way entirely. The issue wasn’t about finding a balance between activity and passivity on the part of parent and child; we should both be activate participants in this wonderful unschooling life!